interesting fun few days

Im so so exhausted at the moment but  i want to write and upload all these new happy snaps that were taken over the weekend. Was very interesting fun but but same time little wierd and strange because receiving all this new information and i personally dont know what to do with it.  you can always just sit back and relax and not let it worry but at the same time its easy done but i just find it annoying because i get frustrated and i see it as why act like an idiot when you dont have to! For example why ignore someone when its easier not to. hmmmm.......beats me!!!

So i had this dinner Gala function on Thursday night. mind you probably not the best choice i made by catching up with my gf in the city and sharing a bottle of champaign during the day and few more after that then head home and suppose to look all pretty for this special event. especially when it was only the 3rd date!!!! my worries were not falling asleep in the shower while trying to get ready and still be standing at the end of the night.

Was a success but the however i was a complete fail then next day at work. thank god our manager was away that day because im pretty sure i was at the back majority of my 9hr shift.

i had a shy feeling during that night and i wasn't fond of it. i felt like i haven't had that feeling since i was still in beginning of high school. Having the feeling of not being your total self and not knowing anyone and feeling little bit be little d i think. one thing i im good at is owning up to my feelings and dealing with them. and knowing what im like however i hope never to get that feeling because clearing then your not being your total self. if that makes sense.

i never want to have that feeling now that im older enough and you know and realize when your, your full self. narrowing it down just comes to being out of your comfort zone i guess.

new thing that i have never been to so was nice in that way.

thank god i had my good gf there for little support however was an odd occasion because me being her close gf i was attending her work function but not attending it with her. one of her colleagues from another department.Just very Strange situation.

Lovely evening, champaign and beverages on arrival following a 3 course meal then mingle and have a little dance.while i was content with me the music that was playing and the cuisine that was in front of me i was feeling relaxed until my date actually asked me to dance. Im fine to dance however not to the music that was playing. Mrs Jones and Michael Buble. i luv that music however maybe was bit daunting considering i have never danced with a guy before doing the formal dance with right hand in his and the other being on his back. i was doing fine and thought wow new moment and memories. But then he twirled me around and then asked me to trust him by me letting loose and flipping back and him catching me. i was Scared as Hell. it seemed normal but im so so weak and not flexible that i was scared i wont be able to come back either.

Then the ritual song of all function i feel; The Grease song came on. then the style of dancing just changes. was all fun. since i can never get sick of it because i sing along as sandy all the time and is still one of my favorite movies of all time.

Friday night one of my gf came around and slept over. It was the warm night so we were getting little restless by staying in and knowing its still so warm out.So we just headed down to my local shops and sat down shared a bottle of white wine and just chatted outside. i luv those nights being outside and its just so still no wind not sweating just Still!! and enjoying the likes of your friends company.

Saturday had to be up early head down to the markets to get all the food ready for our suppose to be BBQ drinks at gf for us not doing Derby Day thats what we all did instead. Other gf came around earlier we made a bowl of punch as Pre drinks then off to the friends house to enjoy and relax and zip beverages all day long.

Was a lovely relaxed day however day after didn't turn out so great considering now i have no energy inside of me what so ever. However was all worth it!

Sunday was suppose to be my catch up day with my friends. My best friends asking me to go out for breakky together then seeing my good gf from school Reggie then see my other close friend mell later that evening at her house. even though was suppose o be a nothing night and relax watch TV in dressing gowns. None of that happened at all instead i spent the day in the city with my house mate. helping her get little bits and pieces together before she heads off to her sisters wedding in Tuscany. Sounds like a fairytale. Was happy i spent the day together since we use to do our catch up days going out in the city before we were living together.

After all that i was so so so tired i felt bad i never really got back to any of my gf and instead i just went to my mums place hoping to have a big dinner there. I was ready for bed asap. even went over there in my pj's.  was prepared just incase i fell asleep be comfy and be in pj's already.

ups and downs

So i feel like i have gone up and down all weekend. Happy then feeling all down at one point then happy and then sad again. i hate feeling all down and sad to the point you feel like crying but its silly to cry because some things shouldn't affect you anymore but they do and its just really annoying that it takes over and you feel like crying.

when that happens you realize how much you love and appreciate your friends. 

So this is what happened.... i had a date on Friday Night after work. already before the weekend had started my emotions during the day was like a yo yo. Being happy, excited, nervous then scared. I was so glad it was just us girls at work that day. No manager just us girls!! At one point we all of us were just sitting at the back all having a bit to eat a coffee and us doing our nails while there was only one on the floor. thats how lazy we get. we all just chill at the back while being losers and showing each-other photos from fb.

Anyways the night time arrived and i started to get ready. was really cute the girls kept checking in how i was going with my hair and make up.

Finally i was off went home first to drop my stuff off then i found myself sitting in the car on the phone to my mum. Meanwhile i was already suppose to be on my way down there. instead i was on the phone  chatting to her and i think distracting myself from the fear of going on a DATE. Just saying the word scares me.

i rather do the catch up instead of the D word.

Finally the the night had passed but im pretty sure i broke all barriers for it being a first date. 

this is where my emotions go up and down like a zig zag. 

So he dropped me off at 4:30 in the morning from his place because he had an early flight. was really sweet came out in the rain walked me to my door and gave a kiss goodnight.

messages kept coming which was sweet but same time i was a grumpy bum and i wanted to go to bed get some sleep since i had work in a few hours and i wanted to get my head around the whole situation that just happened.
So imagine was at work at without trying to you re think of everything that just happened. kind of come natural which is annoying.
Anyways got home feeling good mainly because i was all nicely tanned and i was completely tired just yet so i gave my gf a call back and after a long chat about deciding what to do tonight we figured go out for dinner chinese. There was a new place near hers, we were keen to take the risk and try a new place.
Dinner was a failure however spending the evening with Soph was hilarious.Random Stuff that was happening to us during the night was just to funny.
New week has begun and so excited for it to end already. im on my 6th day of  working the 8 days straight tomorrow. Cant wait for the girly day i have planned in the city with my gf. Getting our nails done share a wine in the city get all ready and prepared for the big dinner gala i have on at night.
Gala dinner i got asked by my date. i thought it was all bit much at first. i got bit scared but everyone i spoke to was like go go he likes you. i was just bit shocked and scared at the same time i guess.
Have decided im not going to derby day now so i can wear my outfit to this special event. im so excited to be able to wear my new shirt i designed :)  Outfit could be a bit to much for this special evening but im hoping i can just pull it off and be all fine. fingers cross.

yay for the weekend

so excited the weekend has finally come. been waiting all week for it. mainly because im so excited just for two nights.Makes it all better knowing my manager isn't going to be there for 2 days. The days i have things on. downside is he is there on the Sunday so its only bad depending on my state after my two nights.
Not a huge weekend planned but hoping to have some fun with Amanda Since we have been talking about doing something since last weekend because the weather is finally warming up again.We both get so excited. means we get to meet half way in the city have few wines or beverages together and get all dressed up. i luv it because we are both such city girls. i would share some photos of our fun nights but my annoying little friend hates taking photos and i cant do photos by myself i feel wierd. cant even pose.so i leave it the random shot ones.
i feel like a little girl again because i have a date tomorrow. i cringe at the word "date". im excited dont get me wrong. To get all dressed up get to enjoy some new company and go to places that you dont usually go to. its fun to do all that. but at the same time its nerve racking as hell. More nervous because its classified as a proper date because he mentioned it and its not like i just met him out randomly. i met him through one of my close gf birthday dinner. And the fact i feel like us both been waiting two weeks now to actually go out. he asked last weekend, the fridaynight to a private party and then again on the saturday for lunch or breakfast. but i felt like i shut him down because working the late shift then working the following day to then ended up going out with my gf instead. whoops.
but i must admit i dont know why im getting so worked up about it. been hearing from him everyday but still. just wierd. and him offering to pick me up from work then we follow on with out dinner in the in the city.
And Saturday get to see my lovely Mell again. been ages!!! been missing the times sitting on the couch in her dressing gowns falling asleep with both of  us having bottle of red each.. haha we aren't depressed at all drinking our sorrows.
I'm working all weekend. in fact 8 days straight because i switched my shifts just as long as i get to see a bed at 7pm after i finish work im happy. then i should be fine with getting enough hours sleep and ready to go all again.

bits and pieces i want

Kenneth Jay Lane- Swarovski, Pamela Love, YSL, YSL, YSL, Lee Angel, Maison Martin Margiela, Tom Binns, Antik Batik, Oscar De La Renta, Aurelie Bidermann, Juicy Courture