So far its the second day in 2011 7 i feel like so much has happened in the last 48 hours. So much information to take in thats so private. Was a great new years spending it with close friends who i luv spending time with. Another random new year! However i did actually have an emotional moment in the new yrs period. i think it was just all this information i had to process in the 24 hours. i may have come across selfish to some of my friends however i did the best i could while still trying to enjoy myself as well.
I made two phone calls during the new year One i guess i wish i hadn't & probably shouldn't have to a certain someone. However i think it was just natural for me to do so since i have been thinking about it for so long & hoping i would hear from him.
I was annoyed the fact that my last new years was so random and fun that i didnt want to have any expectation for this one.
Im sick of people telling me as time goes on it will fade or when something comes along you will forget and just be distracted. I know friends can only say things to make you feel better. But i think no one can feel the same way that you feel. So its very hard.
Close friends of mine have told me several times to just delete the number however even though i know myself that i wont be seeing him its just hearing his voice and having a casual chat as friends makes me feel better.
i know its Corney for people reading this but all i know is that i have been true to myself and i said something that may have made me look like a complete fool and embarrassed myself. Actually know for a fact that i did considering not hearing anything the day after. I wasn't expecting to, however i rather say how i feel than try to be something im not and have a friendship/relationship and be restricted with what i have to say.
Considering all that i had fun night with my close gf Soph & Amanda going back and forth with cabs but definitely well worth it.
Being there in the morning for one of my closest friends who was upset. Definitely worth getting a cab at such a late hour just to be there when she wakes up
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